because you said all women end up marrying their fathers
i’ll marry a photograph
at the bottom of the drive way
who never calls.
i’ll marry a photograph
at the bottom of the drive way
who never calls.
you think the best parts of you were spent on unrequited youth. i disagree. you believe all your sweetness was wasted on somebody who didn’t notice your existence. you’re all i see.
i circle your heart, hajj.
even your sadness is my favourite colour.
when i hear your name, i think ‘that’s my song’.
Where did you get those big eyes?
My mother.
And where did you get those lips?
My mother.
And the loneliness?
My mother.
And that broken heart?
My mother.
And the absence, where did you get that?
My father.
but the boys who are looking for the sad girls always find me. i’m not a girl anymore and i’m not sad anymore, if you want me to be a tragic backdrop so that you can appear to be illuminated, so that people can say ‘wow, isn’t he so terribly brave to love a girl who is so obviously sad?’ if you think i’ll be the dark sky so you can be the star, well the sky is vast and have you seen the sky in the morning? have you seen how it looks against the sun? i’ll swallow you whole.